You are not clingy, or needy, or silly for having needs for affection and affirmation and attention within a romantic relationship. Those needs aren’t an embarrassing outgrowth of your low-self esteem or depression or whatever messy emotional issues you may have going on, that’s just basic shit that people need from each other. We of course should not make our partners responsible for meeting all of our emotional needs – it’s not someone’s else’s job to make you happy. But inside a healthy relationship, being able to show affection, pay attention, and demonstrate “you are amazing and important to me” is a pleasure, not some task or burden.– Jennifer Peepas (via internal-acceptance-movement) Via across the pacific
Once you’re out of things for a while, you want to get involved again. Well…this time it’s a bit different. I’ll be working in less than three weeks starting July 8th. No more huge gaps of time like school breaks and extensive vacations. Of course I’ll have time off and chances for rest, but it’s going to be a lot different.
The class I’m taking is easy. Literally the rest of my day consists of watching tv, video games, going to the gym, and catching up on some Cisco work and assignments before my full-time start date.
Birthday is in less than two weeks too. Honestly, I haven’t given it much thought. Parties are way too much work, so I’ll just be doing something chill and AWAY from my apartment where Nazi residential staff will come down on me faster than a fat woman on cake.
Two weeks from day, I’ll be taking the last final of college and be OFFICIALLY graduated. Yeah, I walked and all of that, but I need this class for my major’s concentration. Everything is checked out, as long as I don’t bomb anything major in the next two weeks.
What I have been doing now is eagerly anticipating my work start date, how many days till I can see my sweetheart again, how much to save up for a rental car, used car, apartment costs and furniture, and just a bunch of other logistical stuff alongside my recent endeavors in becoming a full-time working employee. I calculated the costs and everything and ran through several scenarios of how I can make it all work, along with having fun and living my life comfortably.
When you are bored as I am, all of you can do is await what comes next. I always like to be prepared, even if it’s months in advance. That way I know what to do and things get done properly.
Work, as much as people keep on bashing it, will be quite a relief. I’d rather be productive than sleep in my classes or be lazy. Time moves so slowly when you’re doing nothing…
Alas, the time will come. There will be many days ahead. It’s going to be an interesting transition, and I am just dying in excitement to face it head on. Going to establish that cash flow, making paper yeeeeee.
Please time, move faster just a bit. That’s all I ask. K thx.
Well…my undergraduate college career is officially over! I walked nearly two weeks ago at both our college’s general commencement and my department one. Walking was more of a hassle if anything. Getting sunburned and a darker shade of brown…but seeing my family, my friends, and my lovely little lady made all of the difference.
What am I doing now? Well technically I’m still an undergrad. Still have to take a six week session A course that is required for my major’s concentration. That lasts till July 3rd and started this past Tuesday.
It’s a shame because my birthday (July 1st) will be on a Monday a couple of days before the final. My dear will still be in China too..but I’ll try to have some fun. Honestly, a nice dinner and a few drinks would do. For some reason, I just don’t feel like having something that grand this year. 21 was definitely a blast, but I feel from here on out I’m just going to get nice and ripe haha.
I start work at Cisco on July 8th. Getting pretty excited about it. I enjoyed my internship with them last summer and I’m ready to start making the big bucks now as a new hire. It’s going to be a lot more demanding, but I’m definitely up for the challenge. Not looking forward to the commute though. I’ll be living from home (Tracy) for about 1-1.5 months. I’m trying to save up for my apartment in Berkeley which hopefully I can find. I’ll still have to commute when I move in, but it’ll be a little bit better than Tracy.
And of course I can’t leave out the bundle of joy in my life: Amy. She’ll be doing her internship in Beijing up until her arrival in SFO on July 28. I’ll be seeing her on August 4th when she’s nice and rested. It’s going to be a long summer without her, but I can do it. She means so much to me that this small amount of pain is worth it to see her for the many months and years ahead. 9 weeks. I can do it. And plus when she comes back, she’ll have an even more handsome man, with some chiseled features too! (Did I mention I’m working out extra hard for her return? Hehe)
Looking for a car, saving up, getting an apartment, figuring out the big grown up things, dreading moving out of my current apartment, awaiting the return of my sweetheart….hey it’s a lot but I’m more excited than anything.
I’m not feeling the graduation effect yet. I probably won’t feel it till I start work and when I am settled in late August. Honestly, life is just too busy for me to reminisce on my college life. And more importantly, I need to step up and continue to be the man in my family. Paying bills, looking out for my mom and brothers, and continuing the love I have with Amy is mainly my focus.
For now, I’ll be reading, catching up on video games and tv shows, playing more guitar, practicing my basketball skills (which are already great ;] ), and yes, learning Chinese. YES….I am going to learn it for her. I’ve had this Rosetta stone stuff for a while. Now that I have time, it’s worth a shot.
The future is bright. I get caught up in the excitement sometimes that I just want everything NOW. But I know I can’t have it all just yet. Candlelit dinners with the GF, driving around, stacking those C-notes, saving up for my Benz…I wish I had it all now. But the most realistic and probably disappointing fact about life is that we have to work hard for it and wait.
Patience they say. I’m starting to find it. The excitement is now turning into focus. I feel it is right within my reach and I know I can do it.
Here’s to the next few months of my life. They’re probably going to be the biggest changes I have faced thus far…but I can handle it. Hell, I’ll have to if I’m going to survive the life I have ahead. Life is good, and it will only get better. For now, I’ll keep dreaming and continue to lay the foundations for my success. Just like Bruce Lee said: “As you think, so shall you become”.
Thank you for following! I’ll keep you all posted!
P.S. Yes sweetheart, I have a blog if you were curious ;)
Of course, JB
Via [...this is what happens when an insomniac dreams]
Well, it’s finally official now. Thank god. But I’m glad I waited for her. And now it’s a bright and beautiful day, with the future right in front of us. It could never be brighter than it is now.
Here’s to happy times, a wonderful end to my senior year, and the lovely future that awaits us both.